honestly death cab for cutie.. would you really follow her into the dark?

I don't think he would. But it makes good music...

I don't even think half these people featured in hit songs are even real. I think they're a symbol in flesh of reality to the person writing the song. Perhaps the person really was real. But those feelings were only in theory. It's hard to believe that anyone without the love of God in their lives would be able to love someone else to such great proportions. I have the feeling that one cannot love on such deep levels without God. God is love. Without God, there is no love. It's basic math. But I think these emotions of deep love come from deep down within their hearts, yes. But it's not really them saying 'I love this person this much'. It's more of 'I wish someone would love me like this. I have no idea what this feels like. I need it.'  Yes. I understand this completely. Even those with love constantly surrounding them can't seem to understand that yes there is LOVE. Why? It's cause they don't have the Lord.

Now the hate songs. Those are a whole other story...

I remember...

... when my greatest fear was wasps. My biggest worry was...nothing. And the only pressure I felt was to honestly do my best at everything. I remember having real conversations with my parents, seeing my mom smile, and playing with my brother...

It's funny how things change. Things can at times seem the same, and people will even tell you it's the same, maybe they even believe it. But the truth is that when you get older, it's so much harder to give up the cares of this world. I've even felt the feeling that it was impossible. But I know this can't be true. Difficult I can do. Impossible will just take me a day or two.

Because I can't give up. For if I give up, where does that lead those who are following me? If a colonel buckles under the pressure of the war he is fighting, what happens to his unit of 100 loyal followers? Some will fall with him to fear, some will question their loyalty and trade sides. But some will continue, with a new soldier to take the colonel's place. Who do you think is going to be honored when the war is over? Who will go down in the history books as the hero? It doesn't matter what the colonel did before, he could have freed an entire country in one day. But all he will be remembered for is deserting his men, and leaving them helpless to die.

I will stand. I will fight this war.

The Time as it Passes

So I have been gone, yes. But I love my Jewish friend, and so I am back.

As it seems, life is very complicated. Betrayal by those who swore they never would, feelings for those whose sights are set on someone else, and people who just don't seem to get it.  

But I do see light at the end of this tunnel. Yes, it's God.

The only thing in the world that will never let me down.
This is why my confidence is in Him.

Those who say God isn't real, are just stupid.

And that's that.

It's funny how life is weird. Like, when it seems like a hunk of crap, But no, God's there.

This is becoming even more clear in my life right now just because. And I'm not gonna lie, I love it.